Ok.. Am back for now.. Hmmnz.. MDIS is great! And anyway, i'm here not to tell you about that! I got a testimony to share..

2 days ago, I was reading the letter sent to NS by the ICU doctor.. And it says.. Adin may be independent, but is still unfit to join NS. And something in this sentance just pop up to me.. It says MAY! not SURELY or wad.. BUT MAY?! Which means i may die too?! i may be mentally retarded too?! And out of this 3, God gave me the best option!

And I have to Thank God for that! Seriously! And I have converted to become a Catholic, Knowing the truth! I want to say, WE DON'T WORSHIP MOTHER MARY! We just honour and respect her! She is our MUM! So Protestants, just accept the fact that catholics don worship Mother Mary!

Anw, great jobs are around me.. hanging.. i have 2 great jobs(long term) waiting for me, so.. Maybe you will see me around! I can't say what the jobs are.. because the company don't allow me.. LOL!

Ok! Till then, Have a blessed Night!

Adin Barnabas

Hallelujah! It's 2009.. and i expected it to be a good and sounding year. BUT pastor yang preach abt 2009 will be a harder year for us. 2008 has already been a hard year for me, wad abt 2009.

Today i was very upset! I came home after buying some tidbits and my brother and sister came to me and they accused that i smoke. then i let my sister smell my hands and their words were so negative! so unpleasingly and hurtful! And when they smell, and realise i didnt smoke! No sorry or anything, they just slam the door.. haikz..

Anw, i wana thank God for whatever happen in 2008. I learnt alot! Though bad times, I still want to thank Him! And I am now in MDIS! So cool hah?!
Mass COmmunication is what i am taking!

I can't wait for cell tmr! So cool to worship God! God! I dono what I am expecting, but i seem to expect more breakthrough from you! Another of Your work done in me! I recieved a couple of breakthroughs from Him!

And Yap! Praise Him! God is Good! All The Time!

Life seems easy for me now! It's like.. Live or Die! No one can help me now!? Not even my gf, family, church friends.. No! I have done alot of thinking.. And I think its no point to blog.

I have a gf.. she is pretty and sweet.. and our life is like the same.. dear, I love u. I'm sorry for doing all the nonsense. My life is quite crash up! So u cannot blame me for that.

I miss church! But too bad my dad don't allow me! Next few weeks maybe I am going!

I'm sorry to many ppl for many disappointments. But it's all part and parcel of my life. Sorry to my family, Isaiah and church leaders.

Lies can be decieving. But afterall, You are NOT lying to yourself that simple, you are breaking the trust of your friends and family. And that's gonna be horrendous!

LIFE such a short word but it involves many things. What I want in life? I totally am clueless.. Life is DIFFICULT for me.. Such a long word and such a hard path to walk. I am dealing with so much! People can NEVER understand. 20 years old at where I am now, I ought to be ashamed! I pray hard that God You give me a mind that thinks in Your perspective!

CHRISTIAN sounds easy to be. But its not at all. You aint in a bed of roses but bed of thorns. I have to handle the devil EVERYDAY! and I am sick and tired of it! If only the devil can stop coming to me!

Anyway, been talking to Hannah on the phone, and Hannah: thanks for Your advices, and i really appreciate if you guys were to stand by me and support me.

THANKS HANNAH!!

Woohoo! Months and Weeks have past.. But God nothing is happening..

As I was in the toilet, I worshipped God. And I was just sensing that God, I'm waiting.. And I just sense the word WAITING! Waiting for God to appear more of Him to me. And I dono.. I'm just waiting for God to use me.. at a certain time.. to manifest His kingdom!

And I love school! Except the days that start at 8?! I love Deborah's time-table! so shiok!! And God, please change Deborah and I?! AMEN

I'm now more attached to JESUS than anyone else! hahaha.. God, please, I don want anything bad to happen to me.. Let JOY come to me! THANKS!

And, I AM IN LOVE! with someone from church! haha.. Guess who's that?! haha..
haha..

I'm back blogging after experiancing good times again with God! It's great to be on fire once again! I've been in a route that has got no fire for God for so long... And now i am on fire for God again! May it never cease!

And I saw salvations once again! And its happening in Generations service!!!! And its like so many?! And my cousin got saved! Lord, save her! And my youngest cousin too went to riverlife church, megalife.. God's simply awesome.. I think he is saved too!

Jesus! Show me the ways of life?! God's appearing so real to me now?!! And Our GOD REIGNS!! You live LORD! i totally believe!


AMEN!

OMGosh! At last Adin Barnabas turns 20.. no longer a teen! And i am damn sad about it! gosh! nono! i've just turn 18! hahaha..

Thanks Gen 5 for celebrating my bday for me! It shock my life! And thank God for everything. At last I find everythings fine! Praise the Lord!

Thanks my friends and Family for celebrating for me! thanks!

BUT! so sad, the generationg 6 ppl never! hahaha.. but nvm.. praise God my ex cell still celebrates! Anw! yah lar..
hahahaha


Thanks agaiN!

Share with you all a good news! I glorified God again today! My mum was having a aching hand, and she ask me to massage it. I said, why dont I pray for you. I did, and she's healed! And it signifies God heals! And Jesus, my God is REAL! Can u believe it! hahaha..

My birthday countdown is in 6 more days! hahaha.. wish for alot of presents! hahaha.. My birthday is gona be blessed with service with Ps James Singh! haha.. I pray he is gona prophesy something real good to me!

And BBQ at Seoul Garden! haha.. on Friday night! for my b'daY! haha..


Take Care! I feel myself getting older! OMG! haha..

Today went Toa Payoh to look for my nek nek! She is so poor thing lar! she is sitting at the foodcourt there with no one accompany her u know! omg! so poor thing..

Then we sit with her lor! haha.. and oh yah! my dog is sick now! so damn sick now! he got liver failure! doctor say if he lives, he lives... if not, prepare for the worst! = die! omg!! i love timmy.. and timmy cannot die!!7days to whether timmy will die or not.. so pls.. pray!! hahaha..

i'm so sad!! haiz! =(

I can't wait for tmr!!! I can't wait for service to start! I hope tomorrow i can wake up! God please bless me!
Lord, bless the service tmr! may it impact me! and my friends!!

Today God heal me miraculously! ever seen a fever that last only half a day?!
it's me! and i prayed God healed me!

hahaha.. matt is in vietnam! so SHIOK!! hahaha

next year i want to go vietnam!! hahaha..

anyway, the chalet cancelled le! sorry guys!

Today i'm going to blog about my life! i dono what God has in plan for me lar.. i'm sick and tired of life! but through this, i know the God i worship is true! i realise i am beginning to see the truth,the real thing la.. of God! and God, i'm yearning for more!

No longer the guy that wanted to commit suicide, no longer the guy that thinks of smoking, no longer the ADIN BARNABAS anymore!

God, i'm desperate for You!

And regarding my studies, God, my prayer is that You either make the course more interesting or You find another course for me Lord! haikz!

I dono wads God's plan for me sia!

Blessings,
Adin Barnabas

yay! my best friend is back to me!! thanks mann! eventhough i dono why?!

see.. i type u first! anyway, besok takde skola.. skool holiday! hahaha.. self-declare! haha!!

i must thank God that i have him back.. and it just shows that prayer do works! hahaha..

hooray! still i will praise GOD!! hahaha.. i have joy! hahaha..

To type about events for today! i went tampines mall with my girl.. then to e-hub for a movie. kung fu panda! it's so nice lar! hahaha..

then never go bbq.. listen to my explanation first.. i asked 2 malays if they wanted to go.. they say, no.. i asked my girl if she want to go, she said no.. SO, i decided not to go cos i didnt bring anyone.. and i don want to appear as if got bbq then go, normal cell, dont go.. yap!

i want to ask, is anyone out there who has a passion for malays as well? cos i dont want to stand alone. even though i know God is here with me.. ANYONE?!

my bday is comin! 28 june!! and we are opening a chalet!! hahaha.. good good!!

thats all! i cant wait for church to start! how i wish its starting soon! hahaha

haiz! Life have been bad for me! but nevertheless, praise God! school! i don like school now! not becos of the activities, but becos i don like the course i am in! MECANICAL AND ELECTRICAL DESIGN! i'm not good at drawing!!!!! haiz! but there is hope in everything.. i got plans.. but will not type out.. hahaha

and i lost a best fren! i dono wad to say man! cos until today, i dono why u discarded me.. i'm so impacted by that lar.. cos that fren always with me, always supports me.. and when i am in the hospital, that fren always visit me.. but seems like its gone.. haikz.. i really dono wad to do to get the fren back! help me maN!

and good news.. i'm on fire for God again! hahaha!! you may be asking, recently wad is adin up to! hahaha.. i'm thinking of ways to impact the malays! i pray that malays will get saved! God, i'm starting to get desperate for the malays to be saved! God, used me! i mean not malays, islam ppl!

haha.. so... my prayer is that malays, islam ppl get saved Lord! i long to see them sing worship unto You!! wad a worship is that!

if u understand my heart now!


i decided to start blogging again! hahaha..

Yay!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and HAPPY 2nd life to ADIN BARNABAS!! haha..

I'm so happy cos GOD IS MIGHTY and AWESOME!!

And i've got many to thank.. haha.. Thanks ISAIAH and CAROL for all the care and concern.. Thank SAMUEL for all the hope u still have in me.. Thank WEIYI and NICOLE for being sucha COMPANION to me.. THANKS!!!

Thanks to the many many people that throughout the season accompany me..

hmmn.. my first blog of the year.. wad should i say.. haha.. oh..do link me and do regular visit.. haha..

Hmmnz... ITE or Private diploma.. i think i will be applying for ite soon..

aww.. so sadd...

Havent been blogging for a few days.. Was blogging half way yesterday. Then got too carried away with chatting.. LoL..

Now, I can blog..

Ooh.. What did I do?? LoL.. Yesterday, I went to Downtown with Kenneth Loh and we Ate and go home. So dung right? Ok.. anw..

I dyed my hair.. LoL.. So CoOl now.. Bet its nicer than Samuel's.. LoL..

And.. Yeah.. I dono what to blog le.. Cos so Many happening things happened...

Oh Yea.. Samuel.. Secret K? Don't tell people what I bought today.. Later when they see, they shock.. LoL.. it's OUR secret!!

K.. Bye!!

I LUB YOU!! No Not Thiam You.. it's YOU!! No.. it's YOU ALL!!! LUB LUB k?
(Ok dude, stop acting cute)
(yeah dude, get a life)

Oh.. that's my mysterious friend saying it. Only I can see him. Cool right? Ok dudes, Bye

Today, woke up at 11 plus. Not because I lazy k.. But because of the change of my sleeping habit. Been sleeping at 3am nowadays. Haha.. Cos at night, better to do things. More peaceful and quiet.

Anyway, Went to Downtown Mc Cafe to study again. I like that place. Very nice. It's a total different place from the Mac. A shop for it's cafe itself. They don't sell like fries burger and all.. Just like a normal cafe selling drinks and cakes. I started studying there at 2pm. Then study till like 4 plus. Samuel come online.. then talk to him.. then talk to abel then realize something. No mood to study ler.. but was very tired too.. So started to glue my eyes on the laptop and forgot about my Maths.. haha.. (cos it was too boring) but well, I covered quite some today la..

Reach home at 7.30pm. Had dinner. Laze around till like 9pm then watch tv until i doze off.. Haha.. too tired le.. Then auto wake up at 11 plus.. Cos haven't do QT haha.. then fast fast do le.. then now.. I'm blogging. But so sad.. No one is online le.. haha... it's 3.44am now.. and I am sleeping le.. bye..

Today, I was suppose to be at the birthday surprise for Nicole Niam! Hey Nicole, Happy Birthday! Now that you are a year older, I feel that you've grown up. No longer the small little girl I use to think you were. :)))

Today I did something productive. And that is STUDY!!

Good right? haha.. And now I am being disturb by Mr Lew and he keep saying my mama fat and all... Ok thanks!! :( My mama.. fat.. Ok.. I help you tell her.. ZzzzZZ....

Ok bye...

Studying hard wor!! :) My notes nice right?


















I drew this cos I was so bored !! Mac's Chocolate Ice Blend

Samuel did this to my hand!!

I'm not sure if this help. But I certainly hope that after seeing this, people will change their perspective on SOULS being saved.

Last night, I recieved a call that my friend just passed away. 2 weeks ago, weiyi and I planned to visit him and pray for him. But because we were held up with some stuffs and thus didn't go. Till now, we didn't meet up to re visit him. Who knows, he may be yearning for a prayer? And I guess the unsaved ones on the death bed always think.. Is there God? If you are God, please show me. But no one actually show him who God is...

His salvation was just a step away. His healing may just be so closed. All it takes is Christians that cares to bring him to eternity. He was so near to eternity. It's between a line that determines HEAVEN or HELL. Just to say Jesus I accept You and he would be in Heaven.

I believe from this, we can learn that SOULS are so precious. If they don't get saved, the same situation as what happened to him may happen to your friends, family.

I realise, it's no point for regrettion already. However, you know where he is now. And the thing that saddens me.. Is that, ALL IT TAKES IS A CHRISTIAN THAT CARES.

May this push you on and even for harvest event today. Though one is gone, but many will be coming for the harvest event. And it is just within a step for them to step into eternity. Let's pray for our friends and believe they will be saved TODAY!

Blessings,
Adin Barnabas

I was just surfing around youtube just now and stumble into some videos. Like.. MTV of Casting Crown. Does anybody hear her? and.. slowly, seeing revival videos, battlecry videos. And I teared....

There is this pastor who said this.. So true.. Your heart says God I love You alone. But your ringtone may not say so... i.e ( things we do, watch, say... ) Our Soul may say God I love You. But our flesh doesn't. God I pray, let our lives say I love You totally! From our PC to our HP to our MOUTH to our HEARTS. Let all says I love You.

Was talking to someone just now... Hmmn.. It's so common for people to say.. Tired? Find rest in God.. blah blah blah.. But I think maybe we should step into a higher way of encouragement.

Memory verse of the week : Let us therefore come boldly before the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)

If you are tired spiritually, physically.. I believe this verse is for you.

What else.. Hmmnz.. DOND is coming in a few days time.... I recieved 2 sms that they cannot come.. so sad.. But praise God! Guess what.. My sister is coming!!

Last week, I ask her to come (using excuses like, watch me perform la) and (come as a dating with your bf - her bf is a christian) Then she say OK.. wah so happy..

Then all of a sudden, this week, she just come into my room and ask me about God. About being Christian. Coolness! Then she say, she want to try out.. Cool right?? Give God praise man.. And this Saturday, she will be coming herself.. Cos she don't want her friends to be there to disturb.. She want to really think about it. And see if OUR GOD is REAL!!!

But ofcourse, I know God has Open this door!! And she will be SAVED!!!!

GOD IS MOVING IN MY HOUSE AND CAN MOVE IN YOURS TOO!!

My brother opened up to me all of a sudden and blah blah blah..

Cool right??

And if you notice, Cell have been at my place for barely a few months and this is happening!!
Want your family to get save? Get your cell there.. And when Praise goes UP! the walls comes DOWN!!

Blessings,
Adin Barnabas

Grrr... Susan.. when will you be back??? I need you badly in SINGAPORE NOW!! Sianz.. Things seems getting out of hand man.. And.. haiyo... Aiya.. don't want to say le la.. Bye

If you were to ask me what was I up to today.. Yes, Rehearsal again.. Just got home...haha.. I think we need to improve.. Many things Julie said was what I felt too.. Really.. throughout all the dramas I've performed in.. This one is tough.. Maybe cos I came out with a bad script.. haha..

But well, I'm sure it will be great that day..

Main reason why I am blogging again today is because I am EXCITED about STREET E tmr!! It will be great!! I really miss the times when we do street E like there is no tomorrow. As if Jesus will come tomorrow liddat. What a culture.. Hmmnz.. My prayer is that God speak to us tomorrow on Effective invitation and Effective evangelism. Really hope that tomorrow will be good. Phew!!

Shucks.. I should be studying now.. Alright.. I shall go back to my Physics!! GRrr... I wana SLEEP!!!

I'm thinking... If people would stop judging by people's appearance and start looking into the inner beauty of one.. Perhaps.. It's time I first start looking at the inner beauty of people and not judge by their appearance and determine their capability.

In His Name,
Adin

Woahoh... haven't been blogging since my bday. wonder what have i been up to? haa.. I spent a very simple birthday. Yes, my cell bought a cake for me. Thanks. So much appreciated. :)

And erm.. currently busy with Deal or No Deal event. Rushing out stuffs and preparing. If you are good in deco and would like to be in the planning committee or simply help out please let me know. Desperately need people!!

Next.. I miss SNO!! Was talking to Fatin just now and was reminiscing about the times we had in SNO.. and it seems like we grow up there.. And remember the times when we keep trying to run away from practices. Cos practice was on Mondays , Wednesdays and Fridays. Then if we don't go, the next day Mdm Suriyanti will come to our class and scold us... Grr.. then... haha.. alot of fun lar.. All the scoldings, performances and camps we go through together.. Woah... MISS SNO!!! (haha.. the juniors must do well mann!! Don't let the standards go down!!)

BAIK SNO!! ALL THE WAY MANN!!!

Yea.. Birthday loh.. But this birthday like so different. Mummy ask me tmr want to go where and eat. then i say.. eat what? then she say: it's your birthday leh.. I was like Oh.. Oh yah hor.. hahahaha.. can't even remember it's my birthday.. Anyway, quick.. haha.. wish me happy birthday.. yeah.. edwin was the first to wish me.. haha. thanks edwin..

For birthday, my first "present" is to preach in cell this saturday. hahaha.. jiu wo..

Anyway, my birthday wishes are.....

1st : Samuel, Ben.. Matt and Zach.. may they truely be a man of God... Also pray that ALL of them will pass their exams well..

2nd : Salvation of my family

3rd : May I get closer and even closer to God... A life of intimacy..

Alright. birthday boy hopes that Gen 5 will grow even more. And a zone that moves. A zone that goes into deeper realm with God.

AMEN!!

May this blog be a blessing and not a stumbling BLOG. The bible tells us that His word is a light unto our feet.

Psalms 119: 105 –
Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path.

I begin to realise that quiet time, the bible is so much more important than we know.

When we fall, at many times we blame the devil, the people and except for ourselves. But at many times, we forgot that we fall because there was no light in our lives. Imagine this, being in a room without any light. You are ask to walk around the room. You will realise that you walk very slowly as you don’t know what is before you. At at many times, you realise that you knock or trip over something and fall.

Similarly, Without the word of God as our light, we realise that we fall many times. We realise that our walk with God seems to stop, or slow down. Especially when you have walked for a long time, in a slow phase and never reaching a destination, you realise that you want to give up and just stop where you are.

In our Christian walk, it is so vital to read the word of God as it is the light unto us!

Many a times, when we fall, people around us will say that it is a test from God. And when we are having a good time with God, people will say that God is so graceful upon our life. It’s time to realise, that at many a times why we keep falling, is because there is NO LIGHT IN OUR LIFE!

My prayer is that, WE, people, starts to have such a love for the word of God. My prayer is that we start to walk with light and intimate relationship with God. I believe God wants us to see where we are going clearly.

In Jesus Name,
Adin

This blog is not dead. I was too busy with stuffs previously, so didn't have the time to blog. But anyway, I can't wait to share about PACEMAKER's CAMP!

I learnt alot. alot. this camp. It was truely an encounter with God. After all the sessions. One thing I remember VERY clearly, if you were to ask me what is the whole sermon I can still tell you. Cos that's when my encounter with God came. The place of Gethsamane. which means Oil press which is used to make Olive oil which means have to be squashed which means to become broken. And the place of Gethsamane. A place of being broken before God. A place where you realise that even your bestie, your family, your leader, nO one can help you. A place where you realise that you can only rely on God. A total dependency on God.

And each night, I turn in with so many thoughts, so many lessons learnt. And I thank God for that! Something i really love as well, is that though I always wake up abit late in a sense that I left 30mins for QT.. I just rush to brush teeth and fly out to do QT.. I think when I have such an urgency, these few days, the moment I start to pray. It's just so strong that I know God is just beside me.

Further more, in this camp God proves that even the younger ones can be used to teach the older one things. I learnt from someone during camp. Cos I see so much of a devoted heart she have. And, it's like.. Wow, I honour her man. And, It was amazing how God moves in the whole camp.

Father I pray, that let your will, not mine. Father I pray, a place where I can really say, Jesus I don't want any fanfare, anything! I just want to love You. Father I pray, You find more souls seeking devotions. Seeking for a devoted heart unto You.

In Jesus Name,
Amen

Anyway, the best group was..... ABIDERS.. Give me a A... Give me a B.. Give me a I.. Give me a D.. Give me a E... Give me a R.. Give me a S... What are we? ABIDERS...

Grrr... cheers led by Ivan Tan so you should know how it sounds like. and.. POWERABIDERS! It's Jesus Time.

Then, best female camper: JANICE!!!
BEst male camper: WEESHAN
BEst newcomer: MR RUBEN BENG

Oh yah,. i made a new friend in camp and he is none other than Mr Ruben. Before the camp I heard his name so many time. and i was wondering who is this NAUGHTY boy.

On day one when i know it's him. I was like oh ok.. that explains.. then something shock me. OH NO? HE SEC 4??!! You must be kidding me..

But this guy, I must say, he very fun, very enthu.. BUT!! He very naughty. He is like the FARTER of the camp? keep farting? but praise God I don't experience that glory of his though he slept beside me. But he small size.. so.. haha.. got space..

I really glad that he can tell me what Ps Daniel preached. Means he was listening lah! God keep this soul! Bring him to an intimacy with You!

Today is section camp le.. I slept at 12 plus then suddenly woke up cos very hungry.. then realise i did have my dinner. Cooked maggi.. ate.. then now.. can't sleep already!

Recently, so many things happening. So many problems and disappointments. But I tell myself I shall stay clear of it. Don't want to step into it and get involve. Lest, it involves me la.. So. don't KPO.

We spend sometime praying today. And the camp comm were crying out to God and asking. God would You come for the camp? Would You touch this youths. We cried out for an encounter! God! We want SUCH AN ENCOUNTER WITH YOU!!

I know God heard those prayers. Lord, All have been done and set before You, Father I pray You take over. Do what You want in the camp. TAKE OVER LORD!!!!

Recently I keep listening to this worship: Glorious Redeemer by Christian City Church. I find the lyrics very nice. Glorious God! Glorious God who redeemed us! Your name is Holy!!

Glorious redeemer, I pray that You touch souls who needs fresh fire once again. I keep sensing this word Fresh Fire. Fresh Fire. Well, Let's really see what God will do in the camp!

Beyond games and all, the most important part, I am SO excited to see God move in the place. I know it will be great. I know it will change lives.

Right, if I don't sleep, I guess the time I wake up tomorrow is when the camp comms are at my doorstep knocking on the door. Haa. they are coming my place at 9am!

Woah.. Just came home.. Went to take pay in the afternoon.. I saw my collegues!!! So missed them. and when I enter into the office.. They were like.. ADIN!!! adIN!! And some new TM's were like.. who is Adin man? haha.. I miss you guys! The company changed quite alot!! And they were joking about that it was because of me leaving. Haha..

Went to Vivo to settle some pay stuff. Then meet Kenneth and Matthew for dinner. We went to the Ramen restaurant. Forgot what's the name. But anyway, I ate Volcano Ramen. So PRO right? Err.. We fellowship and talk and ate from 7.30 pm to 10pm.. haha..

Then late le.. So, decided to go home. Ah.. I'm meeting Ps Daniel tomorrow. So excited and nervous. Dono how it will be like. But I am sure it will be good. A one to one talk with the Youth Pastor. What an honour!

Anyway, at tampines mall, kenneth and I were being approached by a lady apparently from Citibank and they ask us to do a survey.. Then ok, we thought it will just take us like 3 minutes. But apparently, it took us like 15 mins. After the survey, they tell us about Saving plan and everything. And wants us to sign up.. WOw.. Compared to Street E.. what a way mann.. Do survey.. then.. talk about Jesus.. And ultimately, everything was just for one thing. SALVATION!

Cool.. Right.. I should be turning in soon.. Must wake up early tmr... haha

Today morning, met Matt and Zach to study. Left Airport at 4pm. because of something. God! You are a God of impossibles! You are God bigger than I can imagine! But God, I know there must be more than this! In History, no testimonies of God teaching in studies. God literally speaking to teach. God teaching on Alkenes.. I want such an encounter! God!! Please! I know You are a God beyond the spiritual but the natural! I went home, no one was at home. I threw my bag on my bed and immediately fall to my face and cry! God! Would you speak!!!! Would you teach me!! You are the best tutor anyone can engage!

Father, I pray.. You speak to me in studies. Such an encounter Lord!! I want this!! I know something in my Spirit says.. Lord! I want this!!!!!!!!

Packed my room and studied abit. And was sitting down and think of some stuffs. Why must we look up to leaders at so many times? It is so clear that we should look up to God.

Father, I pray that You show me things of Your perspective. Show me Lord!!!

I was also thinking about my studies.

Father, I pray, give me strength to face the world. Give me strength to stand strong!

I know that ALL these things I go through is for God's purpose for my life. But Lord, I pray, You give me strength and carry me through! I am nothing without You!!

Thank You Jesus.

In Faith, I pray.......

In Jesus Name,
Amen.

I spent my day reading up on Cells, on Preaching. And I begin to realise something! Salvations should not just happen on Evangelistic meetings or outreaches. It should happen even during normal cell meetings!

A cell is healthy when people bring friends even on normal cell meetings! WE USE TO HAVE THAT CULTURE!! RIGHT?!!

Father I pray, teach us to share the gift of thy salvation. Give us such burden for friends.

Maybe like what I discuss with Zach and Matt about this issue. Maybe as we grow older, our friends become church concentrated and we don't really have friends out there anymore.

But we still have STREET E!! Right?

God, beyond talking, may You start that in me first.

In His Name,
Amen

The congregation is going for church camp tmr.. zZz.. and I am here. Haa.. Almost on my way to church camp.. BUT! my passport expired! Mummy, I should have whine to you earlier so that you will allow.

God, I pray for journey mercy for everyone who is going. May You send Your guardian angels to takeover the bus driver. Lord, I pray for encounter with You God. A deeper encounter. A beyond decisions but more than decisions.

God I pray for hearts reunited with You. I pray for Your hand that touches. To touch dry and thirsty souls. I pray for Your hand that holds, to hold lost sheeps back to You.

Tomorrow, no later.. meeting Zac and Matt go National Library. Study!! shhss.. no talking.

God, bless us even in Singapore!

In Jesus Name,
Amen

Today, I begin to realise how much words mean. How much weight it carries.

To see the things unseen? Which means to carry the burden of it when God shows them to you.

Break my heart the way it break Yours? which means the pain which you will face.

Such reality! These words really carries alot of weight. It's like once you said it, it's marked down. I can testify to it. Sometime ago, i was saying Lord, I want to know You more. And about me was Lord, INTIMACY! INTIMACY! Lord, Hear the whispers of Your heart. And finally, here it comes.. During Leaders retreat. God expanded my heart. It was this pain, this hurt that is so in me. And that's the heart of Jesus.

Today, a cry in me says Lord, find a broken vessel! And Lord, I want Lord! I want Lord to be such a broken vessel before You. Not just a vessel that is empty before You but a broken heart that cries out Lord!!!! A combination of broken heart and empty vessel.

Father, let thy will be done and not mine.

God's grace grace and grace have always been so abundant upon one part of my life. But God, I pray, let me not take it for granted. Let it do more works for Your kingdom.

Teach me to love the unloveable. Teach me to do things right. Teach me to do things like Jesus. WWJD.. wow, what a term that's not been used for sometime. What Would Jesus Do? Show me Lord, things of Your perspective.

In His Name,
Adin Barnabas

I never realise the existence of Giving my best till recently.. and as I was listening to it just now I was like.. Ooh!! I found my love!! It's in BAHASA.. grrr.. the malay blood of me inside seems like it will never be gone.. haha.. it's like when i was listening to the song SAMPAI.. it sounds so much like Cenderawasih, Peterpan and everything. And, i just love them.. Then start recalling the past when i was performing them and listening to the malay music.

I MUST learn Bahasa well, anyone can teach me? Then I can go Indon!! haha.. my desired place.. Indon is so cool.. But i've never been there before.. grrr..... Yesus, Cinta padamu! Kalau awak nak Yesus masok life awak! Cekap prayer ini ngan saya!

Yesus, Saya tahu awak mati FOR? saya. Saya nak awak masok life saya. Kawan ngan saya. Kalau Saya sedih, Awak boleh CONSOLE? saya. Kalau Saya tak tahu buat macam ape, Awak boleh SHOW? saya THE WAY?. NAMA YESUS, AMEN.

Haha.. see.. my melayu so CMI, so SIngapore and so horrendous.. grrr....

I think it's time to step into authority.. no use giving in already. I see so many times like.. it's not that the thing keep coming to u.. it's like u sticking to them. and giving in and pampering you will only make you worst. Lord, teach me how!! I don't want this soul to be gone. But I guess as much as I dont want, it's all still up to that soul whether he wants to get his life right or not. I realise I'm starting to give up. I've already tried. Is there still other things I can do?

haikz...

I've just been back from retreat with Ps Paul Geerling. It was good. I came to realise that there is no need to enforce in those RULES and REGULATIONS when all in the retreat are leaders. So slack.. haha.. we sleep late..wake up late... attend session.. eat... play.. eat.. attend session.. sleep.. play... hahaha

Those who missed the retreat.. too bad.. it was beyond just the fun and everything. It was about entering into a different realm with God. It was the first time I have my own altar call after service back in my own room.. haha.. God was preparing me for something different. God can be beyond room, auditorium. God can speak outside too. God can minister to us anywhere and in whatever situations

But to this 2 guys.. Want you to know. No matter what.. No matter what people will say about whatever you do. Don't let them affect you. Look unto what God wants you to do and not men. Men looks at our appearance but God sees our heart.

I was crying not because I was disappointed with you. But because God was speaking and telling me that He wants you to step out and crossover. He wants you to stand out from the crowd and walk the way He wants. And He wants me to lead you to the ways of God and to the place where He wants you to be in. And I was asking God how can I be used? How to bring you to a place of no return. Such a decision that there is no back out.

And I want you to know, If God is for you, who shall be against you. At many times, how much these verses are true, depends on how much you stand upon it and believe in it. Do you believe in it?How much faith to believe in it?

Just want you to know that no matter what, there is always still a heart here crying and say Lord, bring them into a higher place with you! I believe in your life and I know you will truely be someone God use greatly. Never give up.

Remember this: Be Strong and Courageous, for the Lord your God is with You! This is what i learnt in the retreat. Know that in whatever situation. God will always not only stands by you. But carry you when you are on the verge of giving up!

Grr.. My prayer is that, this intimacy, this new experience that I have will not just diminish. But Lord, I pray.. A thought which leads to action and to habit and finally to character. Lord, I pray.. develop this thought to a habit and to a character.

In Jesus Name,
Amen

Time is flying.. Camp is coming.. June is coming! And I really sense great work God is doing. That night when I was sleeping, I saw a vision, I saw Cornerstone moving. It was a funny experience.. I saw Cornerstone, the whole Odeon Katong building moving. The building was walking to the main road and down the road!

God can be fun! He shows things that others can't imagine. Lord, I yearning for you! I see a near revival!

Yesterday, I went for a BBQ with Ben Tan. Hmmnz.. Ben arh.. don't be cute le.. be serious. I think at many times, we need a shake on our head to really see where we are and what are we doing. Time can fly so fast and when we wake up, we realise we've been wasting time. I'm sure everyone experienced that before.

My heart cries out yesterday night. I was thinking of some people. Lord, open the eyes! Lord, show yourself real again to them! I was thinking why some people get such wonderful encounter with God. And I want it! Lord, there are still many people waving their hands up and say. Lord, I need an encounter with You!! And when I see people like Jill Austin, Heidi Baker. I think of. Lord! I want to be totally sold out for You! Lord, I need You!!

We cannot take the Holy Spirit for granted and assume that He will move through unclean vessels. Many times we think we get away with watching sex, violence and profanity on TV or at the movies, but the Holy Spirit is right there with us telling us He is being offended. We are not filled with the Holy Spirit only when we witness to the lost; we are modern-day Arks of the Covenant wherever we go, all the time. by Jill Austin http://www.jillaustin.org

This spoke to me alot and I believe most of us or rather ALL of us. And oh how many times not only have we broken God's heart but how many times have we offended the Holy Spirit. And I learnt that how to be truely be full with the Holy Spirit when we offend Him always. Now, I know where to start from to be filled with the Holy Spirit.

Listening to Podcast on Ps Daniel's Message. A habit! Things that have became a habit. It's time to stop! STOP!

Hmmnz.. till then..

In His Name,
Adin Barnabas

Haakz.. today alot of thing to say.. Today was the last day of work... Met Chris, Dennis, FuQiang, Phang and Aaron for lunch at iKea and Chris treat us. AND wah so honoured. this is the last treat he giving to temps le. hahaha

Work was so slack. I had a handover meeting with Chris, Simon, Phang, Amos and Aaron. So many people right? Just because I am leaving? haha.. Quite a big Hoo Haa.. hahaha. Then they were discussing on things which apparently i dont have to take note cos its my last day? haha...

Then Chris settled with me my TPS. Err.. then... oh yah.. I did handover to Aaron cos he will be replacing me as the TL for the events team. Then.. Chris ask me to go say BYEBYE to everyone.. And Hmmnz.. the feeling is just different from any other days.. haha.. Just like so sad to say bye.. hahahaha.. And when I walk out of the company. I realise i kind of miss them.. haha.. but still have to leave mah.. cant stay there all my life right? but haa.. over here i want to say some mushy stuff which i didnt dare to say just now..

Firstly, I want to thank Dennis Nah for all his rides and laughter we had together. He is a fine chap just that he got ATTITUDE! haha...
Secondly, I want to thank AMOS for training me.. and being in my team and been assisting me throughout the events projects
Thirdly, I want to thank Aaron also been assisting me.. haha.. in leading the team.

Oh yah.. Before firstly, is to thank MR JASON ANG HO KIAT! For being such a blessing to me. I've learnt quite some stuff from this chap. Funny but yet knows the limit of it.

And to Aaron and Victoria. My prayer is that during this time of working with you guys, I hope I have been a spiritual blessing and a testimony for you. My prayer is that you guys be on FIRE for God!

Fourthly, I want to thank Ms Farhanai. For her free rides too. And more than that, being my friend. Such a nice friend. And Farhana, you are one muslim friend that i really respect for standing on your belief and keeping it right.

Fifthly, I want to thank all the PMs. OMANA, CHRIS and SIMON! haha.. thanks for teaching me how to lead a team.

Grr.. Sick day!! I woke up at 7am and realise that i have a terrible headache. Then I was thinking mann.. and decided to go for 3rd service then. And went back to sleep. but I just couldn't sleep. The pain is too terrible!! And I realise that it wasnt just headache. but fever! Then I was very scared that its dengue fever. But I keep praying God! In the name of JESUS! be HEALED!! but still pain!! I vomit 2 times and decided to go to the doctors.. On my way there, I vomit again. All the panadol (in terms of liquid keep coming out) cold sweat and eee.. just a lousy feeling. And I remember what Julie once said to me. Sick? worship God.. Learn to worship Him even when you are sick. So as I was walking to the doctors, I started praising Him and worship Him. I felt better then.

At the doctors, my family doctor. wah.. crazy.. 10 patients more before me. I waited until cannot take it le.. then i went to lifelink (apparently its a clinic la) see the doctor and get my medicines. but apparently doctor aint God la.. and when I was walking home.. I vomit again..

All in total, i vomit 5 times. and everything i eat or drink.. comes all out after i consume them.. and the worst thing is.. i miss church today.. aww...

But, one thing i learnt today. Even when you are sick, worship God... Even at your down in spiritual sense, worship God.

The doctor said that I got fever and signs of vomit due to over dehydration. And i acknowledge that i havent been drinking ample water. BUT.. i was then thinking. God, I want to drink of YOUR water that never thirsts!

Currently at work now. Grr.. So tired.. Haa…Anyway, I didn’t know that there are so many Adins existing in this world. Singapore alone have like 9 Adins. Or more. Haa.. that was what I found out when my friend attempt searching for me in Friendster. Haha..

If you ask me how’s life now.. Hmmnz.. Honestly I don’t know. But I know God is here. God IS HERE! To bring me to the place of intimacy. To bring me near Him. And I am longing Lord. To be close to You.

Work is boring. But Lord, it’s You who give me joy. It’s You who lives in me! You are more awesome than I know. You are more wonderful than I’ve experienced. Psalms 23 says:

A Psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. 3 He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me All the days of my life; And I will dwell[a] in the house of the LORD Forever.

Indeed. The God of gods. The Kings of kings. Worthy of all Praise! You were here no matter what. You ARE here no matter what. And You WILL be here no matter what. WITH ME!!

Thank You Jesus!

Right. So now, it’s time to go back to work. But Lord, let my every minute, every second be an act of worship unto You!
God be Glorified!! Be Magnified!!

Currently at work.. Haa.. Yesterday went church for Ps Tood Bentley who came all the way to Singapore just to preach. Wow.. People flew all the way from different countries just to hear this man of God to preach.

I was really amazed.. Not by how cool Ps Tood was but by how AMAZING MY GOD IS. Guess what? Healings were all over yesterday. Deaf ears opened! Cancers Healed! Mann...

And he preached about BREAK OUT of something AND BREAK THROUGH into something. He prophesied over Cornerstone, over Singapore and over myself. It was so so so SPOT ON! Then, I was kind of like serving. Catcher, haha.. and many people were falling. (slained due to the powerful move of God). The messages he preached about was very relevant to me, the cell, church and Singapore.

Share with you guys a testimony. I was just on my way home last friday at the bus stop near my office. And 3 ladies where at the bus stop sharing. And reading on my previous blog it was about break through. Truely, it was a word from God for me..

It was really a breakthrough for me. God One thing I want is INTIMACY! Such INTIMACY that I can hear the whispers of your heart.. Lord.. I want my MOUNTAIN!! GIVE ME MY MOUNTAIN!!

Grrr.... I CANT SLEEP!!!!! I toss and turn for an hour trying to carry myself into lala land.. and apparently it doesnt help.. gosh.. Tomorrow have to reach church @ 9 am and my prayer is that God will wake me up!

Alright.. Just want to share with you what I go through today.. At work, I spend the whole day listening to Worship songs through internet radio.. And at times, i feel like just shutting my eyes and ignore whatever that is around me. But each time i attempt to, the TM's will come and kacau me..

After work, while waiting for bus 51 at the bus stop. A group of aunties were chatting at the bus stop.

Auntie A: God has been good in my life. Do you all know how much God means to me?

Auntie B: How much?

Auntie A: Eversince you all (Auntie A B C D E F G) prayed for me, God brought me through with 3 breakthroughs.

I was sitting there and thought to myself. Praise the Lord. Somehow, I feel that that was something God wants to say to me.

God spoke to me and He said. You want breakthrough? it's not having the whole world to pray for you. You want breakthrough, ask for it yourself. FAST! PRAY! How desperate you are for a Breakthrough!

God! Bring me to the next level! I want more MORE MORE of YOU!! Breakthrough in CELL, CHURCH, ALL CHRISTIANS!! IN THE WORLD!!!!!

God be glorified! Anyway, I have 2 new TM's who joined my team yesterday. A girl from FCBC and a guy from Hope of God.. AMEN! GOD BE GLORIFIED!

Let the saved in the office be living testimony! Let the unsaved in the office be SAVED!

Woohoo.. Now still working.. SAFRA!! haha.. But wrapping up le.. Hee.. got 1 renewal today.. kakaka... Today GOd touched me again..

You guys know wad?

I love sitting by Singapore river now.. Cos When I sit there.. and start worshipping God.. It's like the peace of God just comes...

God.. THanks!!

Hee... Right.. TIme to wrap up... BYE!!

Wah. shiok arh.. tmr Safra only I staying.. Boss. haha.. with some Tm's. cos dennis on leave.. hahaha.. but then hor.. what if chris stays? hopefully he don't.. haha..

Today. Work was Ok la.. As usual.. But i went in at 13 30 la.. lol.. cos i overslept...

And.. erm. Introducing a few of my friends to work.. hopefully they get in lehz..

Yeah.. kk.. tmr must reach office on time.. must wake up at 7am.. cos tmr got 2 new TM's.. and 2 new project tmr!

So till then.. Buaiz!!

Just came back from chalet with Family and Family friends.. Mann.. Book out was suppose to be tomorrow.. But cos no one was staying thats why Mummy and Daddy say don't stay and lets book out tonight.. it's was such a waste!

It's kind of like.. What.. I can like call my friends to come if I knew it would be vacant. But then.. At that moment, my thought was like, I wana spend time alone tonight. I want a retreat for myself from everyone. From this world.. I want GOD! God I long to spend time alone with You! Being in a place so soaked in your presence.

But well, now I am back at home.. Haa.. It's ok.. Tomorrow got to work also.. So.. yeah!!

Kenneth is back in camp. I didnt send him off cos i need to BBQ.. to serve.. to standby to her majesty's call.. haa.. He is gona be confined this weekend larz.. Meaning.. 2 weeks again then he can book out..

God.. Teach me what to do to be a MAN OF GOD! to be A MAN OF GOD that GOD USES!!

It's Monday.. And I am still in the office now!! haha.. But well.. earning money arh.. Not easy ppl! I'm stopping work at the end of MAY.. cos June will be so busy.. Rather then apply leave here and there.. Resign better right? Then can focus.. Then July start full time study le!! haha..

Yeah.. Anyway, want to comment Purdee! Mann.. Purdee really, your minutes of meeting is good. May the Spirit of Excellence be upon the whole Camp Comm! yep.. ok.. knocking off soon.. so till then..

i'm too lazy to blog.. so tata..

Woah.. Today on leave so shiok.. Woke up at 11am.. mann.. haha.. then my dear sister went to buy NewYork Pizza for me.. Then eat ler sleep again till 7pm.. haha.. So no life right? but it was such a luxurious to eat. sleep sleep and sleep in a rainy weather. Especially after you slog for a few days.. haha..

Tomorrow going work at 13 30. haha.. good right? but think i going SKS first.. it's like the nicest place I've ever gone.. haha.. the books there are like good! shop so big.. so many many books..

Haa.. Now at Safra.. haha.. another 1/2 hour then can pack up and balik kampong already! Yeah! Today i only had one renewal.. haha.. ok la.. so.. yeah

Anyway.. tomorrow i am on leave!! So happy lah..then on wednesday I am on half day leave.. means coming in at 1.30pm.. then on Friday I am on full day leave again.. haa.. slacker right? hahaha.. saturday is samuel's birthday! haha.. thinking of getting him a book mann.. but i reckon he will read the books la.. haha.. so what do u think i should buy for him.. i don want to buy things that wont benefit him man.. hmm.. samuel ah.. wad do u think i should buy for u? haha.. maybe i will do him a budget card? hahahahaha...

Today.. was super sian.. haha.. imagine this. with a spoilt bulb on top of you.. meaning it's dull around u.. and a rainy and cold whether + a boring job.. what would you think of doing? right.. that was what i was thinking too.. SLEEP! haha.. I went to Jason and my face fall flat on the table dozing off la.. haha.. Praise God Chris was in a meeting.

Yoohoo.. after doing this blog.. 15 mins to PACK UP!! hahahaha..

Till then.. BYE.. and haha.. Dennis sending me back again! haha..

I woke up rather early today! haha. Went for 1st service and Ps Aaron preached.. He shared with us what God is doing in China now.. And indeed as I have been feeling this few weeks.. God.. You are awesome! You are beyond description! Your love so abundant Your grace so great.. God! You are awesome.. More than any words can describe. The greatest joy of my life is to know you! My greatest honour is to have a relationship with you!

Then 3rd service. Ps Lip preached about FIRST for GOD.. In every situations.. Is God FIRST? Wow.. what a topic.. It was good.. trials comes.. decisions comes.. is God first in what ever i do? Then after service.. announced camp comm.. haha.. CAMP COMM OI!! haha.. Yeah.. CAMP COMM CAMP COMM IS THE BEST!!

Then.. met up with matt and mengye for some talk.. Lord.. I pray.. UNITY IN CELLS AND CHURCH! DIVIDED HOUSE CANNOT STAND! edwins theory... DIVIDED = DI VISION (no vision)..

Then went home with matt, yaoyi and marc.. haa.. talked to marc on the bus.. finally home.. slept and talk to samuel and weiyi at home.. and was so sad to know what one of the guys is doing. My heart just broke.. LORD! HOLD HIM! FEED HIM WITH YOU LORD AND NOT OTHERS! LET YOU BE THE FIRST HE FINDS LORD IN TIMES OF NEED!

My heart cries for this man who go through what i've gone through.. it's gona be hard.. but it's never impossible...

Create your own Friend Test here

Today.. woke up at like 12pm.. haa.. thats late right? but was tired man.. so yah.. hahahaha.. then pack my room.. do some stuffs for cell and before i know its 2.15pm! and i havent bath.. so went to take a shower.. and yeah.. cell came.. haha.. we had some time playing some games.. while waiting for edwin.. then just nice when edwin came, we started cell.. had Praise and worship.. It was good.. God's presence was just so significant in MY room!! wow..

Then Edwin preached about unity in cell.. well.. though we heard about unity quite many times during this season.. but it wasnt the message that was great. it was God! He moved in the place and ministered to us. And altar call was beyond talking about unity. it was about almost everything. It was about being a Christian. about laying our life down. I was in awe by God when He speak. I ministered and I was being ministered. God spoke about as much as we say in NS. I will defend my country, with MY LIFE! What about the cross. will you defend the cross with YOUR LIFE?! I told my cell.. even for me.. don't mention about with my life. I don't even dare to say i will defend the cross with my life. well, you may think. that's so coward of Adin. but then. its always actions that speaks louder than words.

Then went to eat at some really CMI kopitiam.. and went home.. haa..

Preparing for service tmr! so till then.. bye...

Ohhlalala... hahaha.. Today's Canon project.. I was late.. My team started with Omana leading them.. phew.. then when i reach there i got straight into work.. then when i make the first call.. Everyone looked at me.. I was like wad? do ur work la.. then omana came to me and told me that i said the wrong thing to the clients. i was like.. opps.. that so paiseh.. haa.. but i didnt know wad.. Nobody told me anything.. how was i suppose to know? haa..

Then.. wah.. I'm so happy.. the records passing around thingy is so well controlled within my hands.. so now.. no records must go missing! But then Chris was like.. doing this is wasting alot of time u know? now only 200 record.. if 2000 record how. 2000 then say la.. haa

currently working for SAFRA now.. 1 renewal! haha.. cool.. I'm the star of the day.. Oh yah Jason treat me Cream puff today!

Wah.. 2 days lack of sleep already!! Haa.. TL(Team Leader) liao woah... On Monday I had a new TM.. Then Omana ask me to train him for Cisco Data Entry.. Yap.. so i taught him how to do and blah blah blah.. and then she ask him to go for another training.. Which is for Oracle which I was also doing.. Like mann.. How am I suppose to juggle with 2 projects at hand? But haha.. smart me handover the Cisco Data Entry to Zoe since she is also a TL.. And she took the lead.. From then, i heard no problems coming from Cisco.. So I can concentrate on my Oracle Invitation.

I didnt even make like 10 calls for Oracle.. cos there were so many problems! All my TMs are like new staffs except for phang. I had like Zalina, Kavin and Kim which were all new!!! Goodness sake.. And I kind of like need to keeping tapping on their calls and making sure they were doing the right thing.. And its like suprisingly i think they dont quite know the 10 commandments in Primetrica yet. You see people talking on their cellphones.. Or chitchatting like nobody's business and worst of all.. I am so busy that i didnt even take note and when i turn to take a look at them.. All of them went to the TOILET!! GOsh!

And for today.. it's like.. I had a hard time tabulating the number of calls made and all the other status of the call for yest's and today's and Omana was like.. Adin, can u give me yest's one by 2pm when i was actually doing websearch cos they were finishing their call list! Yap..was late in handing to her too! haha.. then next thing she say.. Adin, can u give me today's daily report by 5.15pm? And i was like.. hello? we need to finish off our project by 5pm and i need to handover all the CLASSIFIED call lists to Jason? And it takes sometime?? And ofcourse I didnt do it.. then she was like.. Adin, can you prepare the stuffs for tomorrow's new project: Canon's Internal Updating. And I was like.. Ok.. and then in the end she say. You can give me today's daily report tomorrow morning. Means wad? I don't really have to give at 5.15pm right? why must you rush me!!! But haa.. I didn't do Safra today. I was sorting out the missing stuffs for the Oracle project!! Mann.. i dono where the 4 registration go missing to! And I dono where some of the call list fly to! I better find it tomorrow!

Haa... But I think job for TL is not as slack as people think.. for TM's its just doing it.. and handing it to the TL.. but for TL.. it's making sure that the TM's do it and in the right way, stress after the TM's knock off and make sure everything is right.. Maybe that explain my pays.. hahaha.. And shucks.. when i was talking to Zoe about doing OT overnight just now. I blurt out my pay! So careless of me!!!

Woah.. Today's cell was good! Edwin joined our cell! haa.. We played Ice breaker.. it was a duh game but well, fellowship makes it fun.. we played.. Concentration concentration, this is a game of concentration adin barney, barney zhixiang, zhixiang ah pui (haha.. guess who is that). Then Susan preached. I think something screwed deep in me is.. What is being radical. We can see who is radical but we don't know the definition of one and how to be one. Haa.. it's quite weird right?

haa.. then stay at home and never dine with cell cos daddy went to buy food already.. ate the mince meat noodle.. then.. watched some movie.. TMNT! haha.. then err.. yah.. slept at 9.30.. at 10.30 was awoken by a call.. then after that called Zac.. talk to him till about 12+ then err.. decided to catch some rest.. but i cant sleep now.. so decided to blog!

Tomorrow MUST MAKE IT FOR FIRST SERVICE!!!

The first thing when i woke up today.. Looking out of the window.. I saw a gloomy sky.. And I said: Hallelujah! Hopefully it's raining in Tekong so Kenneth gets a slacker training. haa.. Hmmn.. Everything is changing.. Kenneth is now in NS.. New 5.3 is born and yeah.. it's a transition period.. I think it is even in my personal life. God spoke.. and indeed it's time to be ON REAL FIRE FOR GOD!! Evangelism shall not cease and Shepherding shall not stop.. It's my life! Lord, May your grace and mercy me upon me.. and all the people!

Today.. err.. went out with Brenda and Nhim.. haa.. it was ok la.. Nhim was so so so funny.. And anyway.. she wanted me to buy her a full set of clothes worth $150... (goodness sake.. I don't own the bank and neither do i have a money printer at home!) then in the end.. went through lotsa thingy.. and went home after that.. haa.. Now i am blogging.. haha.. bought a jacket worth $49! haha.. there was a discount la.. so happy.. O yah. anyway, we went Vivo.. I was bored of the place though.. haa.. actually i spent more than a hundred today.. shucks.. let's recall.. hmmnz.. $20+ on Carls Junior... $29 on Nhim's clothes... $5.50 on ben and jerry's oh yah.. $11 actually.. but mengye owe me $5.50.. then $8 on Nhim's ben and jerry's milkshake... $9 on cab fare.. $12 on my own cab fare(it was late.. and i probably wont make it home with a bus)... $34 on my jacket.. and my EZ link top up.. $10.. woohoo.. so its a total of.. err.. let me count.. Ok.. a total of $133 haha.. from 5pm to 12am.. i spent $133.. wow.. spending is faster than earning mann!!

Right.. tomorrow cell!! haha.. Am looking forward for it!

Woah.. Today went to see kenneth off.. Mann... I really feel so sad / happy that he is going NS.. Sad because.. I dono who to find when I am in trouble again in future.. (Of course Jesus) but I mean.. literally a heart to talk to... And.. Aiyo... it's like.. he's been such such such a blessing to me.. When we were at the Tekong jetty after all the touring and byebyes to say.. It was a reality that we have to leave him there.. and we can't stay there no longer.. Then I was like.. shucks.. it's reality that he have to leave.. and there is nothing we can do to stop.

Haikz.. I did all i can give luh.. Gave him some biscuits to chew on when he is hungry.. some sweets to pamper himself when he is tired.. Hopefully, he is gona enjoy it.. Guys.. I dono who are u reading this blog.. But if u are with me.. PRAY FOR KENNETH!! Let's pray for God's grace and favour on him. Let's pray for his faith. that he will keep his faith and stand up for what he believe in. Guys.. if you are with me.. Let's pray!

Anyway, the bunks were quite nice.. comfy beds(claims as 7 star resort).. ceiling fans.. toilets without door.. recreation where u hardly step in.. training ground where it hardly rains.. (God forsaken land?) , Canteen with pretty nice food(claimed as international chefs there) and jetty with a WELCOME TO PULAU TEKONG! what a welcome.. And 2 words always used is LEFT RIGHT LEFT RIGHT!! haha..

Then went home.. on the ferry was having motion sickness.. wah.. want to vomit arh.. but nice though.. I went overseas today!! haha.. Though it wasnt mission trip with Isaiah and Jiahui.. its like I went overseas with Isaiah and JiaHui...

Till then...

Mann! Today is an Ultra Stress Day! We were like finishing up our Fedex project and Chris being there rushing us.. Cos he also need to rush.. He rush, we rush.. Everyone RUSH RUSH! Woah.. Sian.. Never even slack much.. haikz

And yeah.. Kenneth ask me to go Tekong Tomorrow! wow.. He is given only 5 tix.. 2 for parents.. and 3 for friends. Out of SO many friends.. I am one of the the 3! So honoured to go! And I want to see how Tekong is like and where will I be living in future! hahahaha...

Now still slogging at work.. so till then..

Everybody make some noise!! Praise Adin! He's the hero!!

Times Newspaper. 10-Apr-2007

A birth of a mighty warrior who shed his blood for his nation SINGAPORE. Mr Adin Lim, 19 shed his blood for Singapore in a medical check up at CMPB. He marched forth to the medics who was attending to him and bravely took out his arm. These medic not only draw some of his blood. But quite some. Mr Adin Lim is indeed a shining hero for his nation. Times Newspaper would like to commend him in his sacrifice for the nation and his courage to shed his blood for his nation. At the same time, Times newspaper would like to encourage you to be like Mr Adin Lim! However, Times newspaper then ask Mr Adin Lim this question: " Mr Adin, it is indeed courageous to shed your blood for your nation. However, I would like to ask you if you are willing to "shed your blood"(give all you have) for Jesus? Well, whether will Mr Adin Lim " shed his blood" for his hero, that is for you to guess and for me to know!

Reported by: Barnabas Lim
Chief Executive of
The Times Newspaper

church camp is coming!! and anyway! i know my pay's figure!! Increment.. Hallelujah!! It is only His grace that I excel in work... WoahOo!! haha.. but this month's pay not very high arh.. cos been taking leaves and stuff liddat...

Sian.. now doing safra.. haha.. no kick.. in 1 hours time i had 2 renewals ler.. (opps.. humble) haha.. but sian.. i rather blog here than carry on calling.. hahahha.. today vivienne came back to train some new people.. there she wrote me a card.. cos its her last day.. haha.. thanks viv.. i love u! hahahaha

So angry with mr samuel lew.. so not appreciative!! i help u get back 2 days of pay k.. then he still say things like.. u think i care about the pay.. no pay no pay la.. 2 days only.. and complain here and there... haikz.. but i'm happy for him when i read his blog.. want to know why? go to links and click on samuel.. and u will know why...

Mann.. Today is Monday.. In 3 days time.. my shepherd is going NS! ahahaha...botak..

Please loh.. on Sunday.. when Isaiah and guys were praying for him.. and i was standing there praying too.. I wanted to cry.. hahaha.. cry baby.. no lah..

But.. hmmnz.. if Kenneth is reading this blog.. Really Thank him for being there for me at many times.. and I remember the times.. despite having his A levels.. He still meets me to shepherd me.. When i have trouble and no one to turn to.. He appear there for me.. Wah.. I think if given a choice again.. to choose a shepherd.. still i will choose KENNETH TAN!! hahahaha.. Bro.. thanks mann.. really.. When I feel lousy. you encouraged me.. when i feel lost.. you told me the ways.. When i feel tired.. you show me the rest.. When I feel like giving up, you told me the caused.. You were there.. Thanks manN!!

Aiya.. all this cannot be described with words.. Actions shall speak louder.. Maybe after 2 years of your NS.. i will be a zone leader already! hahahahaha... And it all starts with you.. one men.. who said.. Lord I will.. that souls get changed.. and life transformed!

Mr Tan.. THanks alot! I salute you.. Mr Army boy!!

right.. its lunch time soon.. till then... bye...

Currently working.. Mann.. I met up with meiting last night and we chatted can say over night? cos i went home in the morning. haha.. meaning mid night la... catch up with this old friend whom i never talk to for a long time.. she is also retaking her O levels... haikz.. if only we were smarter... haha..

then this Friday.. hopefully can meet up with clayton for dinner.. he is like one of my best friend back then in school loh... and i missed the time we go hang out and chill out at tampines mall.. And i remember eating steamboat at his place during CNY.. hahahaha.. if time can be moved back.. i will cherish all the people who have come into my life..

Looks like the night is coming to an end!! another 15mins and i can wrap up and go home le.. hahahaha... And yeah.. last week was my buddy's birthday.. MR ZAC SU.. hahaha... i think he is very happy that he will be getting a guitar la... I think its what he really need mann... Hope he will use the guitar and go a higher level with God!

GOOOOooOOOO!!!! Mann.. I will blog again soon.. about time to knock off.. So.. time to prepare!!

Wakakaka... On Saturday.. We had Section Meeting.. It was called the shuffle.. and we had BGR workshops.

Now.. its great to say that.. Edwin , Annisa and Thiam Heng is joining G5.3! haha.. cool.. Then the BGR talk.. Ok la.. learnt some stuffs.. hahaha.. Anw.. Jian Hui and Michelle is going 5.7.. so SAD!!! hahaha...

It's ok.. we are still ZONE 5!!.. We still love you! haha...

Mann.. Super bored.. now going lunch le.. blog again soon..

whee.. haha.. slacker here.. blogging when working.. mann.. i'm tired.. haha

anw. who say my blog is dead. aint i blogging now? hahaha.. mann.. so sian.. finishing work in 2 more hours!! hahaha.. and got ppl car to send home somemore.. shiok man.. haa.. ZIon was awesome.. Ignite was good.. hahahahaha..

This saturday... We will be having a great fun with something. Hopefully things changed after this.. yeah.. blog again soon....

Before anyone start saying that my blog become a dead blog.. i betta start blogging..
Mann.. been working and working.. so bored!!!! so tiring..!! But yeah.. it was fun and.. easy money! haha.. ok lah.. but i pray that i wont get bored at work and lazy for work.. haha

Zion is coming.. Ignite is coming.. It's in a few days time.. woohOo.. those who are interested to come.. Ignite is on this sunday to tuesday.. Night service at 7.30 is FREE! And for Zion.. the night service is gonna be about the same time i guess.. so.. if u want to attend.. let me know!!

Waiting for money to buy buy buy! hahaha... And anyway, i get into accountings.. Incase u start to think.. WOAH! and everything.. let me tell u first.. its the Simei poly.. hahaha.. But i wont go there man.. I rather retake my O's.. hahahaha

Right.. will continue to update my blog!!

Cell was at my place just now.. haha.. cool mann.. I love it that way.. Would be good if its at my place every week.. Not because its convenient for me lah.. but because I want my house to be so filled with God's presence!! I want my place to be used for His kingdom! I want to pull down the devil's work in my house!

Anyway, I preached today. Haa.. The pulpit world.. I wasn't even sure what I really want to preach about even in the morning itself. And so. I stood at the pulpit dono how to preach about. Then I look at the little notes that I prepared. Then I prayed. God take Over man!

I preached about grace, realness before God and its like I preach all over the place. Then I say. Ok. The cell starts now. Let's pray. I ask God to speak. And He spoke.. Cell was different today. During Altar call. No guitar. No talking. No praying Out loud. Absolute silence. And God's presence came it. We finally end with a prayer for outreach. Broadrick, Tampines and Temasek.

Congrat me in getting a job! haa. i am now a telemarketer! well, all is not confirmed till tomorrow.. I guess they wants to see our productivity and our attitude tmr. Anyway, Samuel Lew and WeiYi will be working with me.. Hopefully.. All will be well.. haha..

What am i thinking now? Tomorrow suppose to have prayer for Broadrick lah.. and Street E.. but mann.. its not good to give excuses on the first day of work.. But i really want to be there... Nvm.. this week Edwin take MC.. i try to take next week and meet up the people for prayer and street e. haha..

Man.. tomorrow work.. better sleep early..

When I said I hate hypocrite! I ask myself am I one myself? When I said I'm tired of life.. I tell myself to stand up strong.. When I look at my own plight now.. I asked myself what to do next.. And this song God spoke to me..

YOU TOOK THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON YOUR SHOULDER! YOU DID IT ALL FOR ME!

Oh what a song.. Take me as I am! Your amazing grace.. Someone once told me this before.. Until you realise how wretched you are.. you never know how amazing grace is.. Truely, I am nothing without Him! Cos He have done it all for me..

Honestly.. what to do next? I dono.. But I know I'm just following Him! and I know.. I'm just running after Him! For He has taken up my burden..

Just to let you know.. Each time I feel upset.. Each time I feel low.. I always remind the first story about God I've heard in my life.. The footprint story.. So.. the next time you feel as if no one is here for you.. Remember the footprint story..

Woah.. today.. honestly.. wasnt a very good day.. haha..

But well.. thank you God.. I had a tough time dealing with people.. But.. phew.. didnt really hear Ps Yang preach.. Anyway... I know these people will be great man of God in future! Not because of me.. but because of His grace and mercy! His love and joy!

And yah.. No one reminded that there is platform this wednesday.. haha.. and I am preaching luh?! wonder if anyone will come?? hahaha... but well.. don come don come loh.. Even if there will only be one person coming.. lagi good.. I talk one on one can ler..

Mann.. pray for our dear dear WENDY!! My heart pain man when i see her X ray... its like.. Aww.... Why liddat!! but then i act like nothing and say it look like kuay chap!

Carol took my exclusive pass to her house away.. haha.. and threaten me with durian if i go her place.. haha.. but i know she bluff one la.. Isaiah and Carol love me so much.. wont stuff me with the forbidden fruit one.. haha.. Seriously.. I will vomit when i eat durian.. so please.. have mercy!!

Ben wore a white t shirt today.. So ITE.. hahaha.. Anyway.. I realise Ben though funny.. but i start to love him.. haha.. not the gay love ah.. but brother love.. Dono why.. but i really do believe he will be a worker of God in future..

Right.. maybe i blog again later..

haa.. It was fun both yesterday and today.. Yesterday.. went to watch JUST FOLLOW LAW.. with.. Ben, Samuel, Abel, WeiYi, Jocelyn and Ivan.. Well.. it was good.. Nice movie.. I kind of spend some time understanding this bunch of people.. Erm.. I must say they are really fun people.. But.. sometime play until like siao.. Until cannot tahan one..

But I spend sometime thinking.. not only about them but generally the people in church... I find many people in cliques.. which is bad!! I feel that.. friends.. definitely you can have.. but don't stick together.. then dont allow others to join in the clique.. Especially people who needs friend.. And that's the very reason why i break up of my clique.. haha..

Matt and Zac are still like my good friend.. but.. to me.. good friend put in heart can ler.. they will understand.. And I can use the quality time on those who really needs attention and needs friend.. So.. if you are reading this blog and you realise you have a clique.. I beseech you to break it up...

Overall.. Chalet was fun and tiring.. tiring cos we played blind mice.. Opps.. at the age of 18 turning 19 playing that? haha.. well.. its ok la.. Aight.. I'm lack of sleep.. so now.. i hear my bed calling me.. so.. GOTTA GO!! buhbye..

Long time no blog man.. haa.. like MIA liddat.. well.. was busy for the past few days.. busy with the festive that was on and is still on.. LUNAR NEW YEAR! Right.. Over here.. Wish Susan Lai a Happy Birthday! haha.. You've been a blessing mann.. haha.. more than a cell leader.. more than a friend.. you are a wonderful saint of God!! haha.. and its your chalet later on..

Right.. Samuel Lew is at my place now.. He super make me eeee... wah lau.. take my seasoning away... strangle me and whack me.. wah... still burp at me... hai.. To his girlfriend who will be seeing my blog.. please change him... Anw.. we will be going to get Susan's cake at Hilton Hotel later... CHEESECAKE!! and.. erm.. watching Just follow Law.. hahaha...

err... to this girl who called me earlier on.. and was upset and everything.. well.. God puts us through all this for perfect reasons.. not because He is a sadistic God or wad... remember its for His glory.. why not just :) and praise Him like what i do with my O's.. Glory to YOU!!

In His Name.
Adin Barnabas

Woah!! CNY rox.. i got angbaos angbaos and angbaos!! Ok.. what should i buy??!!! Advice please?!! A PSP and save some money in bank.. or save a bit more for a LAPTOP!! what do you think??!!

I'm loving CNY!! Anyway.. tmr will be going to isaiah's place for visiting and wendy's place for STEAMBOAT! cool mann!! OK.. no time to blogg now.. cos i'm busy opening more angbaos!!

Weiyi asked me to blog about her in my blog.. haha.. ok.. let me share with you guys a hilarious joke.. One day, as we were preparing for Valentine's day platform.. we wanted to do something for the people who are coming.. a gift.. so i ask this girl who was suppose to preach.. how many should we do? she replied: i dono lehz.. the thing is.. i don think many people will come... hahaha.. at that moment i keep laughing.. and i ask her.. what is your baptism name arh? and she replied me.. faith.. hahahahahahhahaha...

but yeah.. Weiyi the Great..

Anyway.. yeah.. i blog about you le.. one paragraph somemore.. haha..

Today.. or rather yest.. an hour ago.. i went to isaiah's place.. then wah.. havoc ah.. people were playing game.. haha.. and it was fun.. just reached home.. haha.. taking a shower and sleeping soon le.. tmr still must wake up then go BUKIT BATOK! to apply for SHATEC...

Mann.. present state.. things are not certain yet! Many plannings and thinking of what I really want. Actually, honestly.. I know TP won't want me.. haha.. So.. next alternative.. SHATEC- Diploma in Tourism.. $12,975 + $3675 + $348 (tuition fee) + $1300 (miscellaneous fee).. hahahaha..i wish i have a money printer now.. aight.. alright.. just move la.. don care la.. see how.. everything will fall correctly..

Phee... Yesterday.. late for 202 for 10 mins! I ran there loh.. cos I was at TP doing the DAE thingy.. then.. late.. and it was like the LAST lesson?! But nevermind.. anw.. I would encourage you to join the next 202.. I learnt alot man.. And indeed.. its more than just knowledges but changing lives..

Samuel ask me to write about him.. so.. yah.. Samuel is a nice guy. Even though he craps much more than me.. He still cannot make it one.. But yeah.. He is one friend that can be trusted.. And a boy that says: I promise to be a good boy! hahaha.. Mann.. Sam.. really.. I mark your word man! It was a long day today.. Went to TP and did DAE! man.. chances of me getting to TP? Unknown! hahaha.. but well.. backup plan is Private O's at City Harvest Education Centre.. no choice.. but maybe O's will be good.. cos ultimately.. my choice is still mass comm.. but well.. let's see how it goes..

Tmr got T&E! Remember! Remember!! Anw.. like what Nat tag.. why so many people come my blog. Thanks man! But maybe cos some are worried that I will SP? haha.. Fret not.. I reckon i will walk up that path of life.. But definitely.. do continue to visit my blog. Not to know what's happening to me.. But what's God doing in me!

I've finally realised the caused of my results. You give and take away! You give and take away! My heart will choose to stay! My heart will choose to stay! Blessed be the name of the Lord! Blessed be Your name! Blessed be Your Glorious name!!

Well.. before i talk about anything else.. Congrats to Glenn, Eugene, YiEn, Victoria and Brenda for being born again!

Haa.. went for baptism today.. Was yepp.. questioned by many about my results.. But well.. I am not ashame by failures.. Because thats when i stand up and go even forward.. All was well.. I manage to face the first day truthfully.. Haa.. 32 la.. So? hahaha

Well.. now i am in the midst of planning my future path.. Private Diploma or Private O's again.. So.. That's when i need to pray.. Anyway, it's service tmr.. and i'm gona face more.. so.. haa.. must sleep early.. so yeah.. bye...

Ok people.. I know many of you are worried and curious about how i fared for my O's.. Thanks and I am fine.. I failed.. its was L1R4 32 points.. what? how could this be? may be wad you are thinking.. But well.. I really wish it wasn't real too.. But i have to accept this fact..

Definitely.. Initially.. I was SO disappointed.. Very indeed.. I was even disappointed with God?! Why? I studied so hard and this is what i get? But well.. I have to look to my route in future.. Still planning and thinking and asking God..

Sorry for not replying the tons of smses.. I was crying then.. haa.. But indeed.. I am so blessed to have funny people like Samuel, Ben, WeiYi, Ivan, Nigel and Victoria to cheer me up.. Thanks.. that thought means alot.. Wendy and Isaiah.. I am speechless.. You guys were there for me.. thanks..

Definitely.. Budd.. Matt.. thanks alot.. for hearing my cry..

But all the din is over.. no use being sad right? so.. I shall move on..

Anyway, my horrendous results were these:

English C5
E Math D7
Science D7
Humanities D7
F&N F9
CL C6 (not F9!)

yepp.. ok..

Alright.. This is the day.. that the Lord has made! haha.. Today is the day to recieve my results.. shucks.. but well.. actually i am excited.. i am anxious.. this is the day that i've been waiting for.. And tomorrow determines the next phase of my life.. important huh?! duh!..

And i kind of can't sleep now.. but well.. the song.. Here I stand within Your presence keep coming to me.. and I keep singing.. I will worship You forever.. and.. its like YEAH.. I can't sleep!

But honestly.. i would lie if i say i am not scared.. but well.. all has been done.. and i know God have a best plan for me.. May it Poly, ITE, JC?! MI?! NAFA?! haha.. who knows.. but God knows.. it's all in His hands.. Amen?

And Samuel Lew.. stop rushing me for the photos la.. my sis keep pushing me away each time i ask to upload loh.. so.. yeah.. i'm teaching you patience! haha

Heeyoo... What am I gona blog about today.. haha.. Err.. well.. today.. it was horrendous.. I slept till 1pm.. Gosh.. jialat man.. Anyway.. I woke up.. eat.. watch tv.. play computer.. then watch tv.. then play computer.. then eat.. then spent some time with God.. then now.. play computer. then going to sleep soon.. right! I feel so tired.. hahaha...

But well.. tmr will be cool.. tmr.. I'm going swimming!! YEAH!! thats why must sleep early.. if not cannot wake up tmr!! So.. yippie!! And oh yeah.. guys.. thanks for viewing my blog!! DO TAG!!

Heeyoo... What am I gona blog about today.. haha.. Err.. well.. today.. it was horrendous.. I slept till 1pm.. Gosh.. jialat man.. Anyway.. I woke up.. eat.. watch tv.. play computer.. then watch tv.. then play computer.. then eat.. then spent some time with God.. then now.. play computer. then going to sleep soon.. right! I feel so tired.. hahaha...

But well.. tmr will be cool.. tmr.. I'm going swimming!! YEAH!! thats why must sleep early.. if not cannot wake up tmr!! So.. yippie!! And oh yeah.. guys.. thanks for viewing my blog!! DO TAG!!

Actually, I'm thinking about something.. Does friends really lasts?! I think.. I've lost many many friends.. I mean my school friends.. Like.. well, we are still friends la.. but its like no longer in contact.. and aren't doing what friends does anymore le... Phew.. If only there are friends that are real friends.. But well.. Things comes and go...

Aight.. today.. was cool!! I will upload some photos soon.. We went to send Charles off.. And i tonned at the airport with ivan, samuel, jeremy, jocelyn and weiyi.. It wasn't because like nothing better to do la.. But i think we did fellowshipped.. and haa.. it was cool with guitars there.. haa.. And Oh yah! I missed 202 today!! Shucks.. missed 2 lessons already.. You think wendy will give me private tutoring? haha.. Later she whack me.. but even if people were to say.. aiyo.. you never take it seriously.. but i still gotta explain.. I mean.. i really am interested in it.. but somehow it keeps slipping off my mind.. even forgetting that its Tuesday! I thought today Wednesday! Haiyo...

Thanks Matt and Susan.. for informing me.. haa.. when i see miss call or sms from them means i know i miss class again! haa.. Sorry God!

Aight.. GOooOOOoOTTttTa GoooOOooOOOOo!!!! BBBBBBUhuBBBBBBBYYYYYEEEEEee!!

Charles Tandanu! Don't go!!! Mann..Charles is going back to indon tmr.. Charles Tandanu! All the Best! Awak mesti boleh nia! Remember: You are not going back for nothing.. You are being sent back as a missionary for God!! In all things remember, there is a family here.. supporting you!

Anyway, today must sleep early.. so.. I aint gona blog much.. cos I've gotta wake up at 5am tmr! yeah! Long time since waking up at that time.. Only during school days do I wake up that time.. hahaha.. right miss the look of the sky at 5am!!

Hahaha... God! I've finally resigned! Yeah!! Ok.. Maybe like what Matthew say: Why work?! In need of money arh?! yepps.. not really in need.. but just want it to fill my own satisfaction.. so yepp.. Resign ler! They were like.. Oh ok.. please return the uniform.. haa... So.. dono if I should still work on weekdays.. but well.. Don't think too much first..

Anyway... To you.. Yes you.. you know who you are.. Be encouraged man.. Everything is gona be fine.. Let's just really pray and bind that strong man.. I believe we will go through this together.. We Will.. yes We WILL!

Aight.. I will blog again at night luh! BuHBYE!

PheeYoO.. its a tiring day.. was late for usher duty today.. reached church at 8am when i was suppose to be there at 7.30am... but well.. it was fun serving today.. Saw Pastor Sharon sharing in the Children's church.. Saw the little David's mighty man there.. I was then thinking.. Why aren't they listening? I mean.. some were.. but others weren't.. And I was thinking of that.. I thought to myself.. I won't waste my breath talking if they don't want to listen.. haha.. that explains why I am not in children's ministry..

Somehow, I know.. that Ps Sharon will feel happy one day.. Seeing kids who were once in children's ministry glorifying God in different ways.. And praising God that she did not regret setting these foundations on them...

Anyway, 3rd service was speechless.. I can't describe how it was like unless you were there.. God did a deep work in my heart.. and when i go home.. i told myself to respond to God during QT.. but then.. again.. I said.. NO! why? becos I want to respond when I don't go back on my words.. 1 week! I told myself.. If 1 week.. and I am still serious.. Then only I know.. that I am really all out for that..

Dear Sheeps/cell members.. Real sorry that I didn't fellowship with you guys today.. Honestly, I feel really bad.. Not even having the chance to talk to my own sheeps.. But well.. its gotta be like that once a month!

And oh yeah.. I think I'm crazy.. cos I'm gona resign tmr.. WHY?! because I begin to really realise.. It's sabbath day.. Or perhaps.. It's because I missed the soccer match! haha.. yeah.. Singapore win.. Ohleh Ohleh Ohleh Ohleh! No la.. but somehow I feel unease the idea of working there.. it was a fun place.. but I feel really unease as though God wasn't please.. And yepp.. It's confirm now.. that I resign.. God.. May the manager not be unhappy.. but who cares.. haha.. Amen!

It's 2.30am! Shucks and what am I doing online?! I slept at 11pm but somehow I was awoken at 2+.. Toss and Turn and try to get back to sleep because I know I will be working tmr. But somehow, I can't. It's not the first time. Such a time as this indeed! I layed on my bed and started to think. Flashes of scene of worship came to me. And I'm thinking, How God?! To worship prophetically?! How to be led by You?!

Then again and again, I see my sheep! I see Samuel. What then? God, what about Samuel?! Then I see Broadrick.. And God say, you are going with Him! And I say: Yes Lord! I know, I know! How many times must You say?! And God says: Yeah you know.. But how many times do you REALLY go with him?! Actions speak louder than words!

Then I see my cell.. And I hear God says: I am for 5.3 and who shall be against it.. Well, I know! God is in cell.. Then I hear God says: Adin, esteem others higher than you. Even the people in your cell.. Though there should be respect. But its a world difference in respect and pride. No Pride is even though you are a leader, you see others higher than you and respect is when there is no pride in you and when you show that you really care. Regardless of your title, you are being respected.

Phew.. O level results be out soon mann.. Aiya.. No use fretting over it since its already done. But ishk.. can't act normal anymore. Its like a slip of paper that will determine my future luh! Aight.. What did I do today?!

I spend my day painting doors? gosh.. Daddy is like.. so.. eee... complaining about how badly done it was! nvm.. excellence.. hahahaha... I have been feeling wierd this few days.. Its like.. just something in my life.. that is so different.. I find myself praying at wierd hours and wierd timing.. Like praying when i was bathing.. and ended up bathing for an hour? and.. praying at 2am in the morning?!

But I know.. God's about to do something in my life.. Anyway, yesterday PACEMAKER's section had a prayer meeting.. It was a prayer in regard to the sermon Ps Daniel preached : FIRST THINGS FIRST - prayer to bind the strong man. It was a led by the Spirit prayer meeting. I was rather surprise.. to find ourselves not praying for our outreaches which we planned initially.. We ended up with first dealing our hearts. I ended up praying with fear. Real fear of the Lord.. Why? I was simply afraid that those things from me were not from God. We ended the 4 hours prayer meeting with a prayer only if u mean it.. Meaning, pray for the outreach only if u mean it. Just as that, I know, that this season, God will not allow me to throw my sheep alone in Broadrick. But me, to Broadrick..

Hmmnz.. Its a prayer time now!

Father, teach me to see others higher than myself. Teach me to esteem others higher than myself. Father I pray that I will never have pride in me. That no longer eyes that see people below me. But Father I pray You give me eyes to see others above me. Remove all prides and place in me humility!

In Jesus Name,
Amen

&-Exits.

Cornerstone Community Church
Generations 5
Ang Shirgin
BenJamin Tan
Janice
Natalie Wong
Samuel Lew
Wei Yi




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